Just being frank

I tried writing what i wanted to say, don't know what effect it would have.
I am not thinking about any rejection or acceptance , I just want to convey that yes I might have been a total idiot but still I am still very much interested. Let it be known that even though it is late, even though I was not able to express what I meant , even though I wanted to say how badly I wanted to take this thing further on.

Now since I wrote some things of what was really going inside me , so hopefully I will be peaceful once more and all that desperation, restlessness and frustration will depart my soul and allow myself to be immersed in all my idiosyncrasy once more.